Monday, December 14, 2015

This week

I don't have a ton of time and my hands are really cold, so this email might end up being really hard to read. SoRRy.
First off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISAAC! That darling kid is 8 now! I am so excited for him to be baptized. What an important, wonderful step in life. Take some cute pictures for me :) We had a baptism this week for a boy named Nathaniel  (18), and Sis Vance and I are teaching his dad, Jose. While his son was in the font, he turn to me and asked "Can I take a picture?" And I said, "No." and he got so mad, haha. Duuumb.
This week has been a lot of running around all over Panhandle.. Sister Long (who I am obsessed with) Took me to my doctors appointment in Amarillo on Thursday and it was so fun! Then afterwards she took us to this ROCKIN Indian restaurant. it was the best food I have had my whole mission. Then on Saturday we went to Lubbock to go to the TEMPLE! It was so wonderful. I got to do  sealings for like 2 hours, haha. The temple is the best place in the world. I just feel like a princess in there. 
Some not so fun points this week consist of a lesson we had with an investigator who went off on us for about an hour over how we are just here because this is the religion our parents raised us in and how we don't know anything..  My heart was beating so fast and I accidentally sort of yelled my testimony at him, "LET me just stop you right there. Do you think I am out here fueled only by the faith of my parents? You. Are. Wrong. I know this church is true with every fiber of my being. Everything we have shared with you is the truth." -He cuts in saying "But you were probably raised in this faith by your pare--" "YEAH I WAS because guess what, IT IS TRUE! Now, we want to share it with you. Will you read this pamphlet before our next meeting." Investigator: Yes. Me: Great. See you Monday
It was a rough lesson. But the spirit was so strong. I really love these people but sometimes they just make me so mad. 
So I have been studying the Atonement a lot recently and I have found some of the most interesting finds.. I don't have time to share all of them, but i will share a little. On the night of Golgotha, The Place of the Skull, Jesus was nailed to the cross, spiked crown on his head, blood on his face, lacerated, sweating, crying out in suffering.. It was all so intense and terrible, but to make it supreme, to make the Atonement infinite, the Father had to withdraw his spirit from Jesus. And that has sustained Jesus as it sustains all of us. As it left him, he cries "My God! My God! Why hast thou forsaken me?! Then Gods spirit came back, and Jesus died. At that moment, Jesus became the Christ. This hit me so hard to read about because can you imagine being the Father on the night of Jesus's death and suffering? It was a terrible experience for Heavenly Father. 
Since this began to clarify itself in my mind and I am learning of the Atonement, he's become my personal Savior. I love Jesus. I love my Heavenly Father. I have never realized before what they went through for me and you guys and all of us. I have learned to love God with all my heart and feel closer to them. And I love to testify of their great mission to us and their great sacrifice. Both the Father and the Son- what they went through for our sakes. 
This church is wonderful and truer than true. Heavenly Father and Jesus love us so much. I love you guys so much. 
Thank you and be safe and remember them this Christmas season. 


Monday, December 7, 2015

She was so mad because no one wrote her this week.

Well Well well well. I feel really sad right now because I am a huge emotional baby and I am sorry y'all have to deal with me. I love each of you so much. So much. I could not be here if it weren't for you.
I want to start out the email today by bearing my testimony. So often we think of Jesus on the cross or suffering in the garden, but this time of year we get to remember Him being BORN! Bringing life, light, joy, peace, and everlasting happiness to the world! He came to bear our burdens, walk beside us in times of grief, strengthen our weaknesses, wrap us in His perfect love. Our Savior came into the world to SAVE us. Save each one of us that will come unto Him and accept Him. He is truly the light of the world. The world is growing more and more dark and evil, but I know that everything is going to be okay. He has told us time and time again to FEAR NOT! He is my joy out here and I love being a missionary and testifying to every person I meet that He lives. That a Savior was born so that we can return to live with our Father in Heaven again. I love Jesus so much. He is my closest friend. 
Something that is so wonderful to experience is when it's fast Sunday and everyone who gets up to share their testimony is a convert and they just cry at the pulpit THANKING the missionaries for finding them. I love the work of Salvation so much. It is so dang hard at times, but the fruit of our labors is the sweetest in all the world. Heavenly Father loves his children so much. 
A really old couple we have been teaching, Daisy and Andy, ended up in the Hospital this week. We got to go and visit them and pray with them. It is such a blessing when Heavenly Father allows for you to feel a little piece of the love He feels for His children. It is so overwhelming for me sometimes, but it is truly wonderful to feel how much he knows and loves each one of us. Holding Daisy's weak shaking hand and we prayed with all our strength that she could be relieved from some of her pain and get some rest was so emotional for me. I love her so much. She was able to feel peace after we prayed and go to sleep, it was a miracle. They are out of the hospital now and at home! Thank the Lord!
Also, this week I found my companion in the kitchen eating cereal with GRAPE JUICE instead of MILK! I just stood there screaming and laughing at her and I told her she just made my weekly email. 
Do not be afraid to stand FIRM in your faith. Be ANCHORED in truth. Listen to what the Prophet says because it will stand tall and strong in a world of shifting values and ideas. Remember that Jesus is the Christ. This is HIS church. 
I love you all so dang much. Thank you for all your support and love and prayers. My heart feels so much peace, so thank you. I will be seeing you in 18 days and I am so excited. I love each one of your so deeply and I will never ever ever let any of you go away. 

ps Mom my camera broke and I am using Sister Vance's

I am so so so sorry for the way i lef things today during email. Like I was telling Hannah, I don;t realize how much i rely on y'all until i feel like you're not there and then the pain of being so far away really hits me hard... Thank you for your prayers. the Lord is letting my heart be at peace. I will have a good day and I hope you aren't mad at me for being such a baby and needing so much attention in the hard time with you Sister. i really don't mean to detract, I am so sorry. Being away is just hard and Borger is a hard area. The mission president interviewed me this week and told me that Borger is different from all areas on the mission. you have to measure it's progress in centimeters where other areas it is feet or miles.. But the Lord placed me here to learn and grow and that is excatly what I have been doing. He has been so good to me. 
I want you to know how beautiful you are mom. You radiate and glow. You have grown more and more beautiful with the years and I hope that happens to me. PLEASE take caare of my sisters and keep them safe from spiritual danger. Satan knows how much they mean to me and how badly I love each one of you. God is watching over y'all too. Keep the Faith. Follow the prophet. Be a member missionary. have the missionaries over for dinner. Share the new LDS video for christmas on your facebook.
I love you endlessly 

my hair is getting long! Jack pump in the backgroundddd

Dear mom, no legs haha

I don't always dress like this but I thought it looked Christmassy

trying to take a jumping picture
burnt peanuts look like poop